I don't think I can easily write about what motherhood means to me. It was so powerful. That moment of becoming a mother, when suddenly this little person appeared and all he needed was me. My heart burst and I was overwhelmed.
The journey to becoming a 'mum' was hard and it was painful. I thought I'd be a natural, having grown up with so many nieces and nephews, but breastfeeding was impossible, doing anything was impossible, taking a shower would be the one solitary thing I managed to do each day. And then it got better... it got easier. It was still hard but it was difficult for different reasons. I was now confident. I knew I could do it and I knew that I was good at it. I could take him out for an afternoon and it would all be OK. We could even get on a bus and go into town, imagine!
Now motherhood is the wonderment I feel when I watch him explore and discover. So many things for him to learn, and excitement to be found everywhere. I care for him, I play with him and I try and teach him.
This photo was taken at Millport. He had the whole beach to look at, the rocks to explore, other kids to play with, so what did he do? He sat in the grass and gazed in amazement at the kernels. He amazes me :-)
I know what you mean about the confidence thing - when we went to leave the hospital after Burton was born I was so afraid of hurting him(I am clumsy!) I had to get his daddy to dress him and undress him the first time! It took a couple of months probably before I believed in my capability of being a mummy.
ReplyDeleteI love the way your son in the photo is concentrating so hard on that kernel - lovely :-)
Motherhood is "amazing" and they do "amaze" us daily, don't they?! Love the photo!! x
ReplyDeleteThat is a great photo and proof of the unpredictability of motherhood :D
ReplyDeletebeautiful pictures
ReplyDeleteHe looks so small, and so concentrated, like a grown up ! that's motherhood ! protecting them, and help them grow up !
He is soooo cute, love the picture ;)
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